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Saturday, December 31, 2005

And Here's To 2005

What another trip around the sun. Not only does the United States further move to the right on political issues but Congress continues to compete with the President to see just how corrupt it can become before Bush outright dissolves it.

I always get sad seeing the lists of celebrities we've lost and there were some good ones, like there always is.

I think my family had a great year. Of course there were a couple of really low or scary points but watching my son turn one and show excitement over his Elmo slippers for Christmas were more than worth it.

I wanted to give a quick Top 10 list for both albums and musical experiences for the year. I listened to and saw quite a lot of music this year but there sure were some stand-outs. Starting with album releases and in no particular order:

1. Bruce - Devils and Dust
2. Winton Marsalis - Live at the House of Tribes
3. Thelonios Monk with John Coltrane at Carnegie Hall
4. Joe Cocker - Mad Dogs and Englishmen deluxe
5. Huey Lewis and the News - Live at 25
6. Sonny Rollins - the 9/11 concert
7. Harry Connick, Jr. - Occasions
8. Bob Dylan - Bootleg, volume 7
9. My Morning Jacket - Z
10. 30th Anniversary Born to Run (couldn't help myself)

My top ten concert experiences this year (and these were tough!)

1. U2 at the Oakland Colesium (11/9)
2. 15th row for Springsteen at the Oakland Paramount (5/5)
3. Derek Trucks Band at the Catalyst, Santa Cruz (2/11)
4. sitting on stage seeing the Allman Brothers Band at the S.B. County Bowl (5/7)
6. Branford Marsalis Quartet performing A Love Supreme (3/12)
7. McCoy Tyner Trio at Yoshi's (1/31)
8. The Black Crowes at the Fillmore and opening for Tom Petty (8/5, 26)
9. Ray Brown Tribute at Yoshi's (10/1ish)
10. tribute to Jerry Garcia at the Greek (9/24)

may 2006 bring as much peace and harmony to your life as 2005. See you next year.

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Monday, December 26, 2005

Belated Yuletide Greetings

My Internet connection wasn't working for the last couple of days which kept me away from here. Maybe that's a good thing, but now I'm back. Hopefully everyone had a wonderful Christmas holiday in which the community of believers celebrates the birth of Jesus Christ.
This was one of the nicest holidays I've ever had and the main reason is that I didn't worry about presents that much. Not that I want them, but it's such a stress to provide things we think that people want but probably don't but you still need to do some obligatory thing for them. My neighbors showed true Christmas spirit and made things, mainly goodies for one another or celebrated by having parties with eats and drinks and the opportunities for people to celebrate their friendships. Those are great presents. My wife and I also loved seeing our little son begin to see the wonder of presents and family and big parties and to-dos of the season. My father always said that Christmas was for the children and I got to see that this year. We bought him his favorite toy that he loves at daycare and to see his face light up when we opened the box for him was worth the entire holiday.

Now, musings on our wonderful country:
A story from the SF Chron from 12/23 reported the yearly charitable givings of Americans by socio-economic groups and wouldn't you know it, middle-class Americans out-give rich people, giving $1 to every wealthy 50 cents? Good to know, considering the rich have been given the greatest amount of tax breaks that haven't been extended to the middle class? So, if the wealthiest of Americans (in this study, they were defined as those making $250,000 to $10 million yearly) have received the greatest tax cuts ("death" tax, capital gains, 4/15 slashes) that weren't given to the middle class, technically, middle class Americans are out-giving on a $4/$1 ratio. That's absolutely pathetic. So, while the rich are using their government subsidies, handouts, handbacks or welfare programs (you choose the name)to make themselves wealthier, the middle is taking its paltry tax cuts and giving it to those less fortunate. And considering that the middle class does not possess the same amount of liquid assets that allow for tax loopholes and breaks, they shoulder a greater amount of the tax burden compared to the rich who can bury their wealth in their investments or businesses and live on "bonusses." God bless us, every one.
I do respect Time Magazine's choices for Persons of the Year. Bono's selection for his continued raising of awareness of Third World Debt, poverty and AIDS relief. Didn't know anything about it? Do your homework. You'll see that a self-proclaimed spoiled rich rock star with a Jesus complex is out there doing more for the ending of modern scourges than probably anyone else out there. And he's not preaching just before he launches into another rock anthem at his overpriced concerts, he's meeting with heads of state and religious leaders who can actually do something about it. God bless him. Melinda and Bill Gates are also worthy of recognizing this year. The couple vowed to give away half of his fortune by his retirement age and he's done a good job so far of doing so. Raising awareness and making efforts to stem world poverty and disease, this couple is truly putting its money where their mouths are. May the B and M Gates Foundation continue to make a positive impact on earth. Not even the inept Red Cross can compete with Bill.

Has there been a declared winner in the "War over Christmas"? I didn't know that there was such an issue in our country about trying to wipe Christmas off the face of the earth in this country but Fox News, Bill O'Reilly and other self-proclaimed indignant demagogues have proclaimed this culture anti-Christian. They complain that businesses greet customers with "happy holidays" instead of "Merry Christmas" and certain civil and civic groups have not displayed Christmas Trees but removed the foliage altogether or renamed them "holiday firs" or the like. Political correctness aside, today marks the end of one religious holiday but also the start of another, Hanukkah. Kwanzaa's not a religious holiday per se but does deserve to be mentioned as numbers of Americans recognize and celebrate it as well. Why should Christians possess the monopoly on the season's greeting? Are we that self-absorbed that we fail or just choose not to include other peoples of other faith in the celebration of their religious or cultural holidays? So, as one Christian group is vowing to do next year, certain Christians are choosing not to buy presents for each other. This purported goal is to drive the American economy to its knees in order for businesses to reverse course on the "purging" of the holiday. Isn't this ironic that people of a particular religious faith are more worried about their power as consumers instead of inherents of their religious teachings? Didn't Jesus drive the money lenders and business people from the temple as he felt they were making society more money driven than religiously-based? Is not the love of money the root of all evil? And yet, American Christians (which, according to the label values the two instititutions as ONE) want the right to have stuff on sale, in order to spend and spend and spend and spend and spend in order to promote the values of Christmas, which are that it is better to receive than give, that friendship and family are shown primarily in the giving of material possessions instead of good works, that children should be given everything they ask for, and that every business must remember that the purpose of running a business is to keep in mind the religious beliefs of some of its clientele in order to marginalize and possibly offend others. As far as I'm concerned, to Hell with the American secularization of Christmas, the gawdy lights and inflatable snow-people, stupid blinking lights and crappy junk food, the demand for tons of presents (which, aren't we as Americans spending too much and not saving enough for our futures anyway?) and the stores and malls catering to our insecurities of gift-giving. Shouldn't Christians who wish to recognize and absorb the true holiness of the season give to the needy (the orphans and widows, especially?), spend time with loved ones, go to church and teach our children the purpose of the holiday, light candles and sing and pray, kiss our family members and tell them they love them as God wishes and wants for us to do? Whether or not Jesus was born on December 25th, in an animal pen, in Bethlehem or Nazareth, on 0 A.D., 1 A.D., or 7-3 B.C., (or B.C.E., for us secularists), the purpose of the season and its holiday is to recognize God's love of humanity, humanity's love of God and humanity's faith and hope that we as humans have something and someone in which to aspire; that we should but more importantly, can be and find better in this world than all of the garbage we bring on ourselves.

May everyone truly find and experience the true meaning of the holidays, whether we are Christians, Jews, people of other faith and those of no faith. Holidays and celebrations are for us to find the better angels of our nature. Now, get to the malls and take advantage of those after-Christmas sales!!! I wear large and my favorite color's blue.

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Poor Design

A judge in Dover, Pennsylvania, ruled today that "intelligent design" can not be taught in its public high school as its proponents made a thinly-veiled effort to push creationist theory and their Christian beliefs. "A man died two thousand years ago on a cross; isn't anyone going to defend him?" was a quote made by one of the board members who also misled the rest of the board into believing that the sole purpose of "expanding" the science curriculum was to give high school students an even more well-rounded science education. This judge made the best decision, but should have also shot down "intelligent design" as faulty pseudo-science which, based on its on merits, is unfalsifiable and therefore not allowed in scientific curriculum. People may vehemently disagree with this ruling and my support for it; if they do so based on their faith, then my position stands. If people disagree with this ruling based on their support for "intelligent design" then two things must happen: they must find more solid logical and evidentiary proof to support this theory but the second thing they must do will fly in the face of the first: expand their understanding of "design" to include multiple options of "design" for their theory. Astrology must be included in the teaching of this theory as well as the possibility of alien life forms, as either of those pose a good chance of being the creators of life on earth. The fact that both of these also stand as unfalsifiable in a laboratory setting disqualify them which is why they should be studied and/or discussed anywhere but a science classroom.
For those who disagree with the ruling based on their limited understanding of the theory of evolution and claim that Darwinian theory is "just a theory", they need to read a science dictionary and stop listening to their pastors who are either equally misinformed or deliberately manipulative in espousing their definition of "theory." As of right now, most (and we're not talking 50% plus 1) scientists support the theory that natural selection is the definitive understanding of life on earth. Not its origins, mind you, but in its wide variety of life forms as well as the abundant speciation of the planet. It's an amazing discovery and theory and for me at least, gives me an even deeper appreciation and awe for what/whom I consider my "Creator." Anyone willing to take OT as Lit in college will clearly see that the creation stories in the first part of Genesis is clearly allegorical and used to explain the existence of the tribes of Israel, not the definitive scientific explanation of the world and its flora and fauna. Fundamentalists will hate reading this, the judge's ruling and anything that flies in the face of their understanding of the universe but the purpose of education is not to re-enforce the beliefs one already possesses but to create a greater understanding of the world one exists in order to create a deeper, more factually-based explanation of why things are. And if you don't like this, then to Hell with you!!!! (like the pun? :) )

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And We Shouldn't Take It ANYMORE

What patriotic, law-abiding, Constitution-respecting, independent-thinking citizen of this fine country is not just absolutely outraged by the news of this last week? Especially when the president takes a righteously indignant stand over the last two days claiming that anyone reporting on the story and the spread of questioning into the story constitute the aiding and abetting the enemy? This, of course, is a typical Bush/Cheney/Rove tactic: scare the hell out of people, not with facts, but with the usual fear tactics that play on people's insecurities and prejudices. The New York Times (which ridiculously held onto the story for over a year at the request of Bush - subtract "over a year" from now and what you basically have is a scandal just before the g*****n election) is not the Washington Post of the early 70s and should be implicated in yet another reporting fiasco (what does this make, three in the last three years and yet we still respect its "credibility"?) and should be leading the charge in reporting of this story. Most outrageous was the president's press conference yesterday and the number of misstatements, lies, distortions of the truth or outright fabrications Bush gave the press yesterday. Bush claimed that the intelligence community's attempts at tracking Osama bin Ladin were compromised when a story covering the type of cell phone bin Ladin was carrying broke the case open - sheer bunkum. That's another ploy at pressuring Congress to approve the most draconian law ever created since the Espionage and Sedition Acts during World War I (laws found uncontitutional, anyway), the USA "Patriot" Act. The doublespeak there is that anyone challenging the passage and execution of those laws is unpatriotic, but again, the demagoguery coming from the Rove White House is ludicrous but I repeat myself. Bush also screwed up and said "Saddam" when meaning, and later correcting himself on "Osama" (which makes for another interesting psychological exam as to whether in Bush's mind the two men are the same person) and then proceeded to state that he would continue further spying on Americans through the NSA.
When will we, the American citizenry, stand up and say, "ENOUGH!!!!!"? This president is in clear violation of a 1978 limiting the executive branch to, god forbid, actually following a series of laws in order to receive permission to secretly spy on citizens, something that has only been denied the government four times in the twenty-six years since its passage. Bush's actions post-9/11 have been truly impeachable - illegal spying on citizens, skewing intelligence (or, as most of us see as outright lies) to start an illegal war, creating a policy of torturing and detaining prisoners of war that fly in the face of international law (anyone remember that in 2002 the Bush Administration pulled the U.S. out of the International Criminal Court - no doubt in order to avoid being charged for war crimes when it would carry out actions such as removing the nails from a detainee's fingers, waterboarding and the other heinous acts U.S. soldiers or the CIA have been caught doing), overstepping his Constitutionally-defined powers as president by authorizing wiretapping and spying, and let's not forget the whole White House-orchestrated Plamegate CIA-leak scandal that has yet to nail Rove and possibly him. All of this and yet yesterday marks the seventh anniversary of Bill Clinton's impeachment for carrying on a sexual liason with a consenting adult!!! Personal behavior aside, we as Americans have our priorities completely out of whack when we demand our presidents to behave like puritans and yet allow them to act like Richard Milhous Nixon. To every one of our fellow citizens who voted to re-elect George Bush last year, shame on you for your stupidity; for the Republican Party for pushing the neocon reactionary selfish white rich good old boys club, including this man for our leader, to Hell with you, and may God help us all the next time another horrific terrorist attack because we as a nation is not ready nor united enough to fix the solution; we'll only want to destroy what is left of ourselves because instead of protection we have politics, instead of solutions we have agitprop, and instead of policy we have demagoguery.

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Friday, December 16, 2005

Lying In State

A really sad and depressing thing today as John Spencer died of a heart attack at 58 today. Spencer had been in several movies I've seen but what I've appreciated him the most for is his role of Chief of Staff Leo McGarry of the West Wing. I knew that the word on the street was the show was planning on heading out on a high note at the end of this year. What I didn't imagine is that my favorite drama of all time would experience such a blow at such a juncture. Sad news, indeed.

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Friday Flip-flopping

Well, John Kerry must be having his just desserts as today, the Failure (or Liar or snoop or Distruster)in Chief, realizing that most Americans don't believe that the country should promote the inhumane treatment of people (unless they're poor). The Senate handed Bush his peepers today by rejecting an extension of the USA Patriot Act and news "broke" yesterday that the NSA was given the green light by Bush in 2002 to snoop on American citizens. All of this as well as the news this week that the Pentagon has begun to spy on peace-promoting, liberal and anti-war organizations and figures. Where's J. Edgar and his dress targeting John Lennon when you need them? I can't imagine Americans feel comfortable about a president that lies, bungles and flipflops his way through "protecting" the country. "We need these measures to fight terrorism!" his supporters will cry and yet isn't it interesting just how much information the federal government knew from the mid-1990s to the 10th of September of 2001? Just about everything they needed to about al Qaeda's plan and execution of a terrorist plot involving airplanes. Last I read, I don't think that the feds were snooping through my library card or figuring out just which porn sites you look at on the web in order to screw up foiling the plot. We'll never know just how successful the Patriot Act has been in stopping terrorism as the Bush Administration refuses to share any news except for the false stuff the miltary plants in Middle Eastern media. And al Jazeera's the bad guy, right? Why we as a nation can't grasp the fact that our Executive Branch is modeling just how to fail at fascism is beyond me. Here's a president and his co-president (where does just Dick Cheney have the constitutional power to do all that he's done?) launching neocon wars, pitting religious groups against the mainstream culture, nation-building in the Middle East, expanding nuclear weapons programs, cutting ties with our historically-strongest allies, rejecting environmental treaties, publically supporting politicians that have been indicted for commiting felonies, rejecting modern science, using chemical weapons (bet you missed that one in Iraq, eh), squeezing the middle and lower classes in favor of rich people and corporate donors, gutting social programs, endorsing religio-pseudoscientific thought into academe and building up the greatest amount of year-to-year debt even far and above his mentor, Ronald Wilson Reagan, and yet he seems to be seen as the poster child for conservative, Jesus-fearing, "compassionate" politics? He's doing the worst thing for Christians in public office by not being forth-coming, by lying, killing in the name of God, committing political maneuvers in the name of God, manipulating people who claim to believe in the same God and yet continuing to proclaim his soft, compassionate heart? I don't buy into the whole man-in-the-suit-coming-to-lead-the-world-straight-to-hell-antichrist thing (because remember Ross Perot was called this as well) but isn't the Antichrist supposed to be the one who dupes everyone into following him as he totally and completely fucks everything up? I think we've found him folks, George W. Bush. W standing for Wucifuh, huh huh huh huh huh huh huh (sssssshhhhhhhhhhhh, quiet, I'm hunting Iwaqis, huh huh huh huh huh!) (cue Flight of the Valkyries). We've got a lot to be proud of, as our country truly stands for ourselves and nothing else. With a leader and his actions as such, we deserve to be hated, don't we?

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Thursday, December 15, 2005

The Man In Black

Peter Jackson has proved that he can make movies other than about trolls and munchkins and Dorothy's attempts to collect her valuable jewelry and head home. King Kong, making its premiere on Tuesday at midnight, seems to be drawing positive crowds and reviews alike. I would like to see it, it's playing in my hometown theater, but whether or not I do, I already know what it's "about" and I don't like it.
The original Kong film debuted in 1933, a difficult time in American race relations. While Klan membership was on the decline in the South and midwest, lynchings were still at an all-time high and white racial superiority was still en vogue. It wouldn't be that much longer that Jesse Owens would stun the Olympic audiences in Berlin (three more years) and cause Adolf Hitler to storm out of the stadium and for Joe Louis to pummel Max Schmelling (five to go) and show to western nations that African Americans were talented athletes that could perform at the same level as whites. W.E.B. DuBois at this point had just about had it and was ready for his ex-patriotic move to Africa and former Garveyites were still writing, evangelizing and hoping for their own chances to pull their own economic strings. The Duke was making a killing in Harlem and Langston Hughes and Billie Holliday were contemplating dreams deferred. Kong, therefore, must have been an exercise in anxiety-wrestling, as white audiences poured into theaters that year to watch Faye Ray be seized, threatened and ultimately loved by the giant gorilla. I believe the film is truly a statement, albeit unconscious, of the white race stating its superiority (albeit anxiously) over the African/African-American race.
The film starts off with the depiction of native islanders (which, paradoxically, are black, yet, in my years of education, I've never come across an island in the remotest oceans that aren't inhabited by people of Asiatic instead of African descent. These islanders appease their god, a giant gorilla, by sacrificing Judeo-centric animals; a goat is the first animal sacrificed (let's give to our god the anthropomorphic symbol of the devil, right? - so voodoo!). The ape is seen as a possible test subject/circus act by the whites but not before the natives with portable weapons (does that make them "spear-chuckers"?) kidnap the white, blonde, virginal American girl. After a liberating decade such as the 1920s, I'd go on the record that the Faye Ray character qualified for two of her descriptors but possibly and most likely not the third. The natives believe that the gorilla-god would love some tasty Faye Ray (and hell, who wouldn't eh? we're all beasts here) and tie her up. Instead, Kong goes ape but in the process, gets captured and eventually fed-exed off the island to that center of capitalist hope, the Big Apple. We know what happens from here but what so many people miss is not just just the outsider-freak-who-loves-the-girl-but-who-is-just-so-misunderstood-away-from-home story is the underlying visual statements the film makes. Kong is the biggest threat to whites: a HUGE black man that not only loves but desires a pure, virginal white woman. While my brother is by now probably swearing at this inane thesis, he can tell you in his vast amount of reading (what are you up to now, Eric, a thousand books this year?) that the fear of black-on-white control terrified whites, especially in the South for at least a century prior to this film's release. Not only does Kong pose the physical threat towards the white woman's purity, we see that ultimately she comes to love the ape. Spike Lee movie titles aside, what else wouldn't terrify white audiences more in the early 1930s? Hell, they were terrified enough hearing the news less than ten years ago that John Scopes was teaching to his high school biology students in Dayton, Ohio, that man and ape shared a common ancestor. Not to fear, the giant black man is no match for modern white civilization; New York, of all places, was the mecca of WASP domination: Wall Street, 5th Avenue, the home of Carnegie and Rockefeller, Vanderbuilt and the ideas of social darwinism. New York had the money, the fashion, the wealth, the power, the architecture, a truly segregated black and white population (Kong would have to squint to see anyone black living in Manhattan as blacks were basically pressed north of 115th avenue into Harlem) and the world's tallest building. I am not the only one (and thank you, Ana as well as Georgia O'Keefe) to see that the Empire State Building, completed just two years before the movie, serves as the largest, whitest phallic symbol in all of western civilization. In what ends up being just a giant pissing contest, Kong climbs the building, Faye in hand, with the goal of surmounting the giant phallus. Here and only here, is this the straw that breaks the camel's back: destroying the subway, trampling through the streets and wrecking havoc on the people of the city, including the wits of Faye is reason to go after him; it's only after Kong attempts to seize control of Al Smith's big boner that Kong has to die. In the final scene, Kong v. Dong, white pilots have no problem destroying the giant ape. Kong's death serves as the ultimate irony as while the credits role, as Faye Ray mourns his death and the audience is left with the star-crossed lovers plotline, in reality, no one at all questions the real premise of the film: even the greatest of black men can not compare nor compete with white culture. Secondly, the most just and honorable way of handling him is by killing him. I'm just glad they didn't push Kong off the Brooklyn Bridge only to see him tangle in the cables and lynch himself above the East River. Crimony, how'd that be for strange fruit?
I may be off my rocker, I may be telegraphing my own angst and anger into an era that honestly and genuinely made nothing more than a monster movie. Maybe Freud's right about the cigar. However, the more I contemplate the moral of the film and not its story (since all truly worthy stories must have morals), I see one of true tragedy and shame, that being the value system of a society not at all comfortable with the changing status of blacks in this country.
So, why the hell did Peter Jackson make this movie? Where is the subtext of fear in this film? What's the social context in which this film sees the light of day? Here I'm at the mercy of only those who have seen it. Now, I'm off to read the New Yorker's review of the film. I wonder if David Denby's going to find a gay subtext in counting the number of times Kong climbs up and then slides down between the 90th and 60th floors only to see the building's cell phone antennae shoot off into space... :)


please excuse any and all bad grammar, syntax and punctation. All on the fly, you know.

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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Moving and Shaking My Life

I've been listening to a wide variety of music; a lot of pre-WWII jazz, my typical 1968-1973 "it doesn't beat this era" stuff and Christmas music. While engulfed in great tunage, I was watching t.v. last night and realized I needed to renew my PBS membership. In the process, I inherited a newly-remastered copy of George Harrison's Concert for Bangladesh. I have never heard the record but was always haunted as a young kid in the record store by the emaciated young child on the front of the album, wondering why I should be so blessed and others have to suffer. Reading a review on amazon.com tonight, I saw that all benefits of the album, all 100% are still being sent to UNICEF. Buy the album, for nothing else, to send money to people who need it instead of ourselves with our venti lattes and designer cell phone faces. While you're at it, remember the Bay Area (or your) Rescue Mission, Habitat For Humanity, World Wildlife Fund, Amnesty International and any organization attempting to provide relief for the survivors of the horrific earthquake in Afghanistan. My pockets are being emptied and yes, I'm a self-righteous prig. I'll take the insult as long as I feel the responsibility.

Getting off my high-horse, I pulled out some more records that have just killed me from the first listen:

Led Zeppelin IV - the cliche of all classic rock albums, but I can still tell you the first time I heard Black Dog: the wee hours of the morning as I got dressed to go skiing at Bear Valley at my friend David's house in January, 1989 (sorry I don't know the day) and thinking, "damn, a rock riff doesn't get any cooler than that". Each song is an epic in itself, even the foreign Four Sticks. Of course I have a Stairway To Heaven memory but that one I get to keep.

U2's How To Dismantle An Atomic Bomb. I've already sung this album's praises upon its release last November. While not hitting me the first time, my life was also irreversably changed with the release of The Joshua Tree.

All Things Must Pass - have you ever listened to someone who has lived a thousand lifetimes by the time he wasn't even thirty? George Harrison's album is a true masterpiece but one that makes you listen and wonder just how the precious gift of life slips by without you tasting every minute, appreciating every acquaintance, forgiving every transgression and attempting to better yourself? Somber introspection is the only way I can describe this album that is the best damn album The Beatles failed to make. The saddest thing about George's masterpiece is that it truly schools every, EVERY single solo album released by the Fab Four, including his own releases.

Speaking of somber introspection, I watched two movies that force an adult, while young, who is old enough to see the weariness of life, to determine what loves means. Richard Linklater's Before Sunrise (1995) and its recent sequel, Before Sunset (2004) are true classics in unrequited love. The first's story is of two people in their early 20s who meet and spend a single night together with the understanding that they may never see each other again. What develops is a raw, real and true love that only young hearts and honest passions can create. The second picks up nine years after this couple's parting as they randomly re-acquaint. Knowing that they only have an hour and a half before one of them has to catch a plane, they spend their eighty minutes catching up, seeing just how the past decade has hardened them to the worries and pain of life, love's labor lost and the reality of struggle. What occurs between the two is the lost love that both acknowledge to be "the love" of their lives; both of them had always asked, "what if" and "why didn't it happen" and share their most naked feelings and dreams with one another. These two movies are both the most romantic films I've seen and the most painful and soul-bearing stories I've had to contend with. While I'm not going to go to confession here, I can say that every single person probably has some relatively close story like this. The one person who has always made you wonder, "what if?" or "I wonder what they're doing now"; not that we're unhappy but that we still retain a tiny but special feeling for someone else who at one time captured your truest self. It really makes me wonder what "love" is - comfortability? safety? security? nakedness? passion? trust? curiosity? faith? Why we love people and for what reasons; I can't answer that here and probably can't for the life of me. I know why I love my beautiful wife and for what reasons and that I desire to do so for the rest of my life but how is it that one's heart has room for emotions that never die even though that person's existence may have ended years previously? I can think of my girlfriend from high school and those emotions come rushing back, as vivid as they were half my life ago. I guess it's one way of obtaining immortality; making an impression on someone so that they never forget you and possibly share their experience with others to keep "you" going. Who knows. If you've seen these movies, I'm curious as to how they've affected you.

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Where We Are Today

President Bush with a shrug of his shoulders stated yesterday that approximately 30,000 thousands Iraqi citizens have been killed in the previous two years. Next question? and yet most of those are civilians, "collatoral damage", or, more vivid, women and children caught in the crossfire of military weaponry and hot real estate.

Stanley "Tookie" Williams was executed this morning by the state of California after having sat on death row for nearly twenty-five years. A man reformed? The leader of the Crips? Such a tough issue; had one of those victims been my wife or son, we would not have needed the state as I would have killed the person myself. However, on the other and more humane and just side, do we as a society move beyond the three thousand year-old Code of Hammurabi and create a more modern, progressive set of laws that actually sets out to correct those placed in correctional facilities instead of cages?

Eugene McCarthy died on Saturday; his candidacy in 1968, while toppling the Democrats and paving the way for a Nixon presidency, truly exposed the Johnson administration's house of cards in Vietnam and raised the issue of a dovish and peace-minded presidency based on principle and idealism and not politics. Let's hope that the LBJ of today is spelled with a W.

Sy Hersch's latest New Yorker article mentions the expansion of the Iraq War through the use of a heretofore unknown bombing campaign carried out by the Air Force. Instead of "ground troops" we're going to use "precision bombing."

The elections of the 15th in Iraq already is showing signs of Ohio, as a truck with supposedly falsified ballots was stopped at the Iraq/Iran border. Another irony was that the first Iraqis given the opportunity to cast their ballots were prisoners. In Iraq, felons vote; in America, they get their veins pumped full of chemicals.

Texas' redistricting seen as possibly racist and fundamentally disenfranchising. Any state headed by Tom DeLay must automatically be viewed as suspect.

This last week I taught the Bush Administration to my classes of juniors and in being more than fair and objective, I still nearly vomited at the end of each lecture. Either from the students' reactions of disgust and embarrassment or from constantly having to remind the not-so-bright ones that Iraq had absolutely nothing to do with the events of 9/11; that is, unless you're a neocon, a Bush, a Republican, a demagogue or a frigging moron (but I repeat myself).

Next up, more albums that changed my life...

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Thursday, December 08, 2005

I'm Not the Only One

who has been spending today reflecting on the life and death of John Lennon. I know where I was when I heard the news; I know who was playing that Monday Night Football game. I remember the National Enquirer photographs in the following weeks when I went to the store with my mom. I remember looking at the back of my mom's Meet the Beatles album wondering why someone would ever want to kill a man like John Lennon for seemingly no purposes whatsoever.
Last year when my family traveled to Manhattan, my brother and I trekked through Central Park to Strawberry Fields to see the Imagine memorial. A moving, painful tribute. We walked across the street to the Dakota building, through the entranceway where the crime occurred. I hurt reflecting on it still.
John Lennon was not a messiah; he was not a rock star. He wasn't even the "greatest" musician, either from the albums he left behind or with the impact his solo work made. None of that matters to me about Lennon. What matters is that he seemed to represent what it meant to be a person, a husband, a father and someone with faults, failures, redeeming qualities and a spark of the divine that made him the special person he was. I have spent the last week gearing up for today and yet I mark today, like I have marked the last twenty-four December 8ths by thinking about and playing Lennon's music. The Beatles were, of course, The Beatles, and his solo material, was in fact, spotty. Regardless, he left songs behind that touch people with their nakedness, their honesty and their genuine truths.

My favorite John Lennon songs, the ones that speak of truth:

In My Life
A Day In the Life
Happiness Is A Warm Gun
Come Together
Across the Universe
God
Mother
Love
Instant Karma!
#9 Dream
Nobody Told Me
Watching the Wheels
Imagine

The last two are his best.

For the last fifteen months, I have sung Beautiful Boy to my son as I rock him to sleep and settle him down. When I place him in his carseat and when I bathe him. Found on his last album, Double Fantasy, it's profound as it is tragic that John utters the line "life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans."

Life sure as hell happened twenty-five years ago today and John Lennon's absence is still felt. In its own way, Lennon's death has helped teach and remind me that those other plans should be nothing more than loving the unplanned and not being so busy. You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. My heart is on the corner of 72nd across from the Park tonight.

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Thursday, December 01, 2005

The First Day of December

Thanks, Rosa. Because of you, we all must shout a collective "shotgun!" It's only civil and it's only right.

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More Life Changing Albums

Abbey Road - and on vinyl, too. I didn't take it off side two for weeks. And in the end, right?

Pink Floyd - The Wall. I remember absorbing every song the first time I listened to the cassette thinking how BIG rock music could be; how a complex story and great instrumentation could deliver a life-changing emotional experience.

Grateful Dead - American Beauty. While a couple of tracks are dispensible from this one, the keepers are absolute masterpieces. Box of Rain, Friend of the Devil, the obligatory Truckin', Sugar Mag (though the Europe '72 cut is better). However, the three songs that are the pinnacle of spirituality in music are Brokedown Palace, Attics of My Life and Ripple. These songs, like every one listed, have been with me and carried me through the most amazing times of my life. The lowest and the highest. Thank God for the ability to bang on objects to create organized sound.

The sound of Emmylou Harris' voice.

Geesh, and just exactly how could I forget about The Band's Music At Big Pink? I nearly cried from the first of Robbie Robertson's piercing guitar notes of Tears of Rage to Richard Manuel's piano notes of I Shall Be Released. Man, this album took me through quite a bit, and so long ago, too.

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Got Woody?

Today marks the 70th birthday of Allen Konigsberg, more well known to us as Woody Allen. One of the greatest American film makers and my favorite, Woody Allen has a career marked with great successes and failures yet still holds up as one of the most thought-provoking and insightful filmmakers in the history of Hollywood.
I've been accused of being an Allen fanatic; like but not on the level of a Bruce fanatic. I'll gladly keep the label. Sheerly brilliant, Allen in his films has been able to capture the essence of life's experiences. Struggles and failures, joys and pains, Allens characters and stories portray them all. Of course, Allen's worlds are fantasy lands; where else would we find people who constantly quote their favorite authors and poets, where else do women absolutely worship Cole Porter, Benny Goodman and Humphrey Bogart; finally, where is this Manhattan, since possibly only one-tenth of one-percent can afford to live in the apartments and neighborhoods of New York City?
None of this matters; what does is the question of one's happiness in a world where God either is clearly present or possibly absent; love blooms and fades and people either hold on or lose it; the universe is truly chaotic and at random and therefore it takes effort to make your way through the craziness called living that even those who get lost succeed. Taking Allen's truely greatest films and you'll see issues that make people uncomfortable: infidelity, lust, love, trust, longing, and understanding. Characters, sometimes as wooden and stilted as a singular person throughout most of his films, all have completely realistic aspects that one can strongly identify with. His films have often determined my moods or mindsets for days on end; sometimes I can't get my head around plotlines, brilliant dialogue and funny one-liners that I'll use as my own and even sometimes his films make me question what I have often either considered true or right. True art makes us do just those things.
I've already rambled on about my favorite Woody Allen films and won't tonight. I will encourage others to watch his films and get back to me as to whether they agree or not. I'm open and sympathetic to each and every anti-Allen diatribe. Find a filmmaker from the last four decades that still currently makes films and I'll put Woody's up to them any day. He'll win, too.

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